How have I lost my sanity?

I came to our small house in the middle of forest where it collides all the reason. I stopped in front of the door and looked at the flowers, that I brought her for excuse. I didn't like arguing with her and she didn't like seeing my second face, that I tried to hold the deepest in my soul. I reached my hand to cold and metallic handle, that dividedfrom my love, suddenly I iced up. I was thinking of it, I ponded our argument, but the cold handle let in the modest house finally. I came in and the terror mixed with the dreas inside of me. Everything was disorderly, the dinner was pour out, that my wife prepared for me. I was looking at the whole room when I saw her. She lay in blood bath and looked at my eye with so peace. I took her to my armful, she was as rag doll, with that our daughter played until died. She reached her hand to me and touched my chest not to forget. I squeezed her hard and hurtful tears trickled from my eyes. Her face was so peace, while my face was hidden in hurtful veil. I didn't want to lose her, I was afraid that I forgot. I was afraid of not to see her side by side yet, when I woke up. I was afraid of I not to hear her sweet laugh, that I have never kissed her yet. I didn't want to lose her, but she had to go onwards. Her bloody hand fell on cold floor overlaid blood nd I kept her body in my armful. I refused to let her go. I gripped her in my armful all day as I waited for miracle. It got dark again when I decided let her go onwards. I washed her small body and wore her the most beautiful dress, that she had. I combed her fair hair how I could the best and I digged her grave on the intersection seasons. I didn't want so mud smeared her and I did a casket for her, that I drew it with daughter's colours. At night I didn't sepultured only my wife, but also our daughter and my own soul. I became monstrum again. Bloodthirsty creature with serial killer's ideas and madman's ghoulish mind. I really forgot. I forgot kindnessmy wife and feelings to her. She was only dream in the time's frequency. I didn't belive so her was real. She couldn't be real. She couldn't live so perfect  creature so she changed me. It wasn't prospective. The day ran after the next day and people around the world tried to protect their banks, that I thieved one after second with my members, who were totally loyal to me. The Police, the Army, the Aviation and the Navy. Everyone quested after man with green hair and his maniac laughing. I killed everyone, that I wanted without contrition. Also the strongest gangsters had the respect to me and I gave them all world to their loyalty when armed forces were nothing. Suddenly she came devil's daughter alone.